I have been feeling stagnated in so many areas.
Read into that what you may. I think I’m mostly talking about my back, my knees, and my belly. These areas are hurt by 2 years of carrying a baby around, within my body, on my hips, and on my back. Luckily, Niko’s weight has stabilized (he’s been hovering around a hearty 25-27 lbs since he was 7 months old), but that still doesn’t make the pain lessen.
But, of course, whenever I have physical pain, I feel it in more elemental places. Pain stagnates the flow of creativity, love, compassion (especially at 4am, an hour I’ve seen every night for over a year now), and joy.
I haven’t been taking much time to myself lately. I feel obligation on overload. Clients, dinner, laundry, chores, on down the line to crazy. The thing is, I don’t need to feel so overloaded. I need to specifically take time for myself. I know this. I also know that good habits beget more of the same, and bad habits? Yeah. More of the same.
Lately, that’s my problem. I’ve started a few bad habits and I they have taken over. I could very well blame the fact that my child has been in the 4 month sleep regression for about 8 months (since he was 4 months old). That is DEFINITELY what started my bad habits, but that doesn’t mean that I should let myself get away with NEVER practicing yoga or NEVER meditating.
I’m being very honest when I say that my 10 year old Yoga practice has kept this body running. It keeps necessary space between my vertebrae and between any pressing negative thoughts. My Yoga practice supports my practice of empathy. I’m just a better person, all around, when I’m keeping myself in tune.
I thought when I moved into my new apartment last March that I would most certainly take advantage of the lovely and empty sun rooms in the building for a home practice. This way, I could cut out the commute to a gym. In theory, I would just go upstairs, practice for 45 minutes, then get on with my day. Sounds like a simple thing to do at least 3 times a week, right? So why have I found every excuse to NOT do this?
When I recently spoke with a friend in San Francisco, she heaped praise on the course Marianne Elliott offers to start up a home yoga practice. As it was a beautiful day and it seemed like the sort of conversation that would provide fortuitous advice and insight, I decided on the spot to take Marianne’s course. I hit a link I got today, which gears me up to start my 30 days in a week.
Over the next week, I will be working through Marianne’s course to set my intention and my level of commitment. I’m not sure what that means yet, but surely I’ll have more of an idea when my 30 days officially starts.
Through it all, I hope to check in through this website from time to time and record how I’m doing.
Namaste, y’all. Here’s a random photo of me and my BFF to add some color and celebration to this-here entry!